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so my lecturer was like "this is so simple! you're supposed to learn this in Alevel or foundation. what have you been doing last year?!"

and he was like"anyone who can answer this will get bonus 2 mark in the finals!"
and i know he's thinking"heh heh heh!"

Liar

i'm a liar
i lied..
i lied that i'm fine when i'm not
i lied that i happy but i'm not
i lied that everything's fine when it's not
i lied..

random thoughts

hiding behind a mask for too long

acting too convincingly

so much so..that even i confuse myself

who am i really? i don't know..

what is happiness? its a feeling. I used to live it. And now, i can barely remember what's it really like.. after all, its been almost a year *emo*

have you ever wondered why only sad people get support and love and care?

what about happy people? No one ever asked "how are you feeling really?" or "how have you been?"

No one will ever look at a smiling cheerful person and think " i wonder if he/she is really happy?"

how strange..

Its not about being the best or better than people

its about picking yourself up everytime you fall


its about appreciating what you've got

more lessons learned

its been a month and half since i been here.
here, i learned more than i have learned in the past 9months.

i have to learn to think differently. i have to change the way i think. the way i think, is very straight forward. to me, everything is either 1 or 0. there's no in between.
now i'm trying to accept that, just because a person isnt nice doesnt make him/her a bad person..
just because a person is wrong doesn't mean he/she isnt right..
not everything is right or wrong, true or false, yes or no...


i also experience what deadpan means. i'm not gonna elaborate on that. its a long story so.....

anyways, what i'm really feeling now is scared.
all my life, i'm around fun-loving people.. now i'm surrounded by serious people, whom i can't really understand.i don't understand because i've never been around people like that. i have never experienced being with people like that. it's a huge change for me.

all i hope is, i dont lose myself in the process of accepting these new group of people.
i hope i will still be the girl i am now. i hope i will still be able to laugh at everything including myself. i hope i can still be energetic and silly and weird and sometimes abit scary and doesnt make sense to anyone at all. because that's what makes me, me. if i'm not those, then i cant be yingyun anymore.

this one's for the girls - Martina Mcbride

This one's for the girls
Who've ever had a broken heart
Who've wished upon a shooting star
You're beautiful the way you are
This one's for the girls
Who love without holdin' back
Who dream with everything they have
All around the world
This One's for the girls