what went wrong?

it happens to all of us before..

u get a present, all nicely wrapped.. and u were so excited about opening the present.. so slowly u tear the tape, one by one......

and then when u see what's inside those beautiful wrappings, its not what u expected, its not what u want.. do u remember the disappointment? how ur face drops and ur smile disappears?

well, if things and objects have feelings..
just imagine how it would feel when it saw ur reaction..
how much it hurts when it realizes that its not what u actually want..


i never thought about it that way..
but right now, i know exactly how it would have felt..
and the hurt was worse than i ever imagined..

appreciation, people!

i just realized how lucky it is to be normal.

Apparently there are a lot of ways that can go wrong to a human body. not to mention accidents after you're born.

which is why we should be very grateful with what you already have. don't be too lazy to move or walk or stand. Be grateful how you can get up every morning without any pain or difficulties. or you can breath without tubes. eat and drink with ease...etc etc.

everyday things, small routined stuff we took for granted everyday, when there are less fortunate people who prayed and hoped everyday for that normality.

so promise me one thing, don't ever complain about anything anymore. when you should be saying "thank you" every second of your life.

Why does it always take pain or disasters to make us open our eyes to the miracles that have always been right before us but missed? why can't we just see all the small or big miracles that are happening around us almost every moment?

lalala~

me going back this thursday~ whee~ so happy! haha but for the wrong reason! why oh why do i have clinical placements instead of holidays??? why why tell me why~

oh well.. the main point is : i get to go back to penang! hahaha. then i dont have to eat the same food, at night only talk to the book and laptop and phone.. mwahaha

and my nice dad is coming to fetch me~ thanks so much~ hope come back KL also he can fetch me la :P so evil and greedy.

anyways, i have to do an assignment(essay again) about biopsychosocial model when i get back. ish ish. i don't know who is the genius who came up with this thing. way to go man. how can they use a model to represent all human beings? its just so.......generalized! and of course, giving us health care students trouble only. cis!

so u can say i'm not really looking forward to this placement. the actual thing is scary enough. i don't want to make mistakes or do something stupid and get blacklisted by all the hospitals! hmph. then i really have to go back to Engineering.But i don't want.. i enjoy studying physiotherapy, except the essay writing part.
and before going for the placement i have to get 6types of vaccination! means injectionS! ohno! i don't want to get 6shots at once, one is bad enough..

so anyways, i should stop complaining. who am i to complain so much? *beat myself lightly*


*looks around*


*crickets*


bah! i should go think of what to bring back to penang. *reminds myself to remember the onion hanging on the wall for 2weeks*

xxx

"As we grow up,
we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down...
probably will.
You will have your heart broken
probably more than once
and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too,
so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast
and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures,
laugh too much,
and love like you have never been hurt
because every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."

got it from : http://www.scrapbook.com/quotes/doc/6987/71.html

wondering...

"They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them."

I don't understand this. if it takes an entire life to forget 1 person, does that mean there will only be 1 special person in your life? the others you meet after that doesn't count?

small collections~

~Faith is the substance of things hoped for. The evidence of things not seen.

" Monday's child is fair of face,
Tuesday's child is full of grace
Wednesday's child is full of woe,
Thursday's child has far to go,
Friday's child is loving and giving,
Saturday's child works hard for its living,
But a child thats born on the Sabbath day,
is bonny and blythe, and good and gay."
This is a nursery rhyme. haha i know i know, i'm already almost 19 but its cute wat..
I'm a monday's child~ how bout u?

first weekend in MAHSA

oh-ho! i'm having my first weekend in Mahsa. Its abit weird cuz usually when i come back from Setapak to here, its sunday night or earliest is sunday evening. So i always have to prepare for classes tomorrow like reading up for the class on mondays, filling up the water bottle,cutting my nails(yes i have to cut them and they're even stricter than in pcghs.), putting out my uniform, adjusting my alarm clock........

but today, i keep having to remind myself that i dont have to lay out my uniform and all that stuff. But i did cut my nails and read up for my class and fill up the water bottle. And after doing that i have no idea what else i should do. so i slept awhile in the evening, watched a movie, write this blog..and try to imagine what i should do for tomorrow-which is nothing except studying :S
but usually when i'm in setapak i did nothing but sleeping and lazing around and disturb people. haha. so its the same. but at least there i will have company and my voicebox won't lose its function for lack of usage. hmmm~

and i'm starting to miss my Deary(haha ok i know its a very gross name, but i thought it sounds cute so...) already. how come i only get to see you for such a short time after such a long time. hmph. its not fair. And everytime we meet we will fight. and always about the same thing. i hate that i mind. i hate that i care. and i hate that i can't help it. i wish i could. i hope u dun mind.

oh well, there's this OSCE coming up next tuesday so i have to study. meaning i have something to do tomorrow. how sad is that? ish.

at least i have something to look forward to----going back to penang~~i mean i look forward to the non-clinical-placement part la. which is anytime excluding weekdays 8am-6pm! oh the torture~i will have to be stuck in the traffic jam again~ in my cutesy Myvi listening to Mamma Mia! soundtrack. haha~ so...Penang here i come~!!

whee hee~

yay~this is my "dont-know-how-many"th attempt to create a bloggie. I have commitment phobia haha. But this time i am determined to keep this blog up and alive~cuz now that i am going to use the laptop more.. its easier for me to type rather than write in my diary. of cuz~no too private thoughts will be put here la but still.. most of my thoughts can be shared la~ hee see im so sharing :P

anyways, this is about my 2nd month here in MAHSA. and 3rd month in KL. I was in UTAR for my 1st month doing Mechatronics Engineering then i decided i want to be a physiotherapy so here i am~ in case anyone is wondering.. MAHSA stands for Malaysian Allied Health Science A(something i forgot d). and its in Petaling Jaya

So now, after doing a year of physics and Maths and Mechanics and Chemistry last year.......here i am studying human anatomy! absolutely nothing that i studied last year is applied here. I've been wondering why MAHSA accepted me using my Alevels since its not at all related and im starting from scratch. oh well, at least that part of my brain for anatomy knowledge is completely blank, i can absorb quite fast. like a dry sponge absorb more water than a wet sponge, you know? same theory i guess? haha. or maybe its just interesting.. i mean, its muscles and bones and nerves.. and i get to grab some guy's ass without getting sued for sexual assault. ha! i'm not a crazy "hamsap po" k, i'm just being PROFESSIONAL~ hahaha

well its nothing much here la. same room, same food, same classroom, same gym everyday.. same feelings. missing my family, missing my frens, missing my penang, missing my dear dimsum, missing everything of my old carefree life..

hmmmmm it really can be lonely here. Especially when i see a family sitting together having dinner, or when i see couples holding hands and talking,or a group of friends laughing and talking so loudly that everyone around them gets irritated but they don't care anyway. and i'm just there alone. And i wonder if they know how lucky they are, if they truly appreciate and savour every moment of that time..

haha ok this is just really long for a first post. i'm gonna stop here now and continue next time~ byeeeeeee!!