just so you know

i don't like it when people say "whatever" or "fine"
cuz its like you don't give a damn

sometimes i want to be wrong

sometimes all i want is for you to prove me wrong..

proudness =)

I'm so proud of my bro~

He's finally growing up! hahaha

today i didn't make my bed due to some laziness. and since my maid has gone back my mom specifically asked me to make the beds today. but me being the procastinator...did not :( which i'm not so proud.

but my proudness for my bro is enough to compensate this unproudness. hahaha
although he sis scolded me abit after making the beds. I'm still proud. ahahaha

contradicting myself...again

ok so i was thinking, people always tell you to never give up.

Like there's this very nice quote from someone " those who failed are those who did not know how close they were to suceeding when they gave up".

However, people also say that you should not be closed-minded and too persistent, cuz sometimes when you're so focused on something far away that you lose sight to what's right there in front of you.

Don't you think these two contradict each other?

Like maybe you suddenly think that : "oh i should try other stuff now that i think this one is not working." and someday you will look back thinking that, "oh what if I just persisted a bit longer, or tried just one more time maybe I would have suceeded."

of course, there are simple situations when these two are obviously different. Like a person who is good in and love math and physics won't take up biology as their main subject. I mean, can you imagine what its like if Einstein choose to be a doctor?

or when there isn't any other choice if you give up. Like when you're going for your driving's test. If you give up then you can't drive. plain as that. There is no if i give up driving maybe i can learn flying in a plane or something right?

those are simple. but since when everything in life are as stark as that?

most decisions in life are always a thin line between these two.

" God gave me the courage to change the things I can, the serenity to accept the things I can't, and the wisdom to tell the difference." Quoted from xxx( forgot her name)

well,obvioulsy i did not have the wisdom. lol

haha I'm confusing myself here. Maybe i should not study so much. Its making my brain go crazy. Normallywhen I don't study so much i think of normal stuff like what to eat for dinner, when to send down the laundry, when should i go back to penang.... you know, normal stuff.

so this is just my pre-exam stress. I'm absolutely normal. at least more normal than now.

my poor phone!

my poor phone is destroyed by a girl called afifah!



behold the butterfinger monster!


so sad!

although its not exactly my phone, its my mum's old phone cuz mine already rosak for a few months.


but that's not the point!

Nokia phones aren't supposed to break! they're suppose to function until the end of time


well actually its just the screen got cracked

i can stil call and sms( provided that i can type without looking)

haha but still...its kinda bad cuz i can't remember how many "down" and "ok" button i should press to set my phone into vibrating mode.

oh well, at least i'm going back today. or else afifah the butterfingers will have to buy me a new phone~ mwahahhaaha!

and she keep insisted there is some good that came out of it---> she made "someone" phone me. lols as if he would if i didnt ask him to. haha!!

yea and note to self: one day i should take a picture of her fingers. they are so freaky! got the buttoniere and clwaing.. clinical features of rheumatoid arthritis. so maybe i shud forgive her cuz i studied moral and i'm supposed to menghormati OKU ahahaha. oops kidding!

so not food crazy

yes i admit, i love to eat~
so that makes me a freaky piggy girl

However, today, although i will get to eat something nice, i found out i had to take a bus to go there!!
so i didnt go. although i so want to eat nice food there.

apparently,
my food-ish piggishness lost to my lazy-to-move piggishness.

so pathetic right... i think so too :(

so emoooooo -_-

heh sorry about the emo post before.....

Just because

Just because I look so cheerful and carefree doesnt mean I'm not crumbling down inside

Just because I said I dont mind doesnt mean its ok

Just because I dont cry doesnt mean it doesnt hurt

Just because you can't see it from the outside doesn't mean there is no wound that will never heal

Just because I laugh doesn't mean i'm happy..its just a mask



Its not easy. I have been hiding and pretending for so long






I'm so tired..






I want this to end... cuz i can't take it anymore